The Weight of My Eyelids

I wonder if you can measure it? How tired one is by the weight of their eyelids? I notice this morning as I woke up for my 7am running group, that I started to feel feverish as I attempted to put my contact lenses into my eyes. I had to sit down as dizziness and nausea set in. I assume this is a direct result of my lack of sleep. I have an issue... I like to talk. I arrived home at 4:30pm yesterday, having a whole evening to complete my organic chemistry homework. I talked to my friend, Hadas, as we watched an old episode of Friends in the living room until dinner time, 5:30. I started a conversation at dinner about what it means to be a good leader until 6:30. I'm not sure where the rest of the night went, but I didn't start my homework until 10:30, and I didn't finish until 1:30. So, when I rose this morning at 6:45... it didn't feel good. It's been that kind of week, every night well under 6 hours of sleep. I just keep thinking about how comfortable my bed is, and how it's waiting for me to crawl in it. I think I can hear it crying across campus now. The dilemma I often face: Is it worth losing sleep and putting my school work at risk to make time for those conversations?

On a completely different note, I took on the role of a leader in my IPRO group! I planned my first agenda on Tuesday (I need to do one for tonight, too). The meeting went well, and we even were done early, which I think made people happy. I don't think I previously understood how difficult it can be to lead a meeting of 14 of my peers. I've been in leadership rolls before, but often leading people who were younger than me. Leading peers is harder than leading 5th and 6th grade Sunday school kids though! These people have lots of ideas about how I should be doing my job, and are much more difficult to demand attention from because they're excited about their ideas for the project. I think this is going to be a leadership roll that will push me to develop new aspects of my leadership skills, and will also challenge me to become a stronger leader than I was before in all aspects of leadership. I like challenges, so I think it will be fun.

Challenging myself to keeping my eyes open all day,

Waha